How do you prove to a stranger that you love your child? How do you prove you scrubbed his shoes with a toothbrush at midnight?
Without a lawyer to stand up and fight for me, I was afraid Grant’s money was going to win.
Then I felt Nolan move beside me.
He’d been quiet all morning. He’d sat with his hands folded in his lap while the adults talked about him like he wasn’t there. When the photograph went up, he’d hung his head.
But now he was sitting up straight.
He was looking at the judge. His face had changed. The embarrassment was gone. In its place was something I’d never seen on him before. Something steady and determined.
He looked like my mother does right before she says something nobody wants to hear.
Slowly, he reached for the front of his shirt.
His fingers went to the tiny silver moon above the pocket. He pressed on it. Then he reached up underneath the hem, on the inside, feeling for something.
“Nolan,” I whispered. “Honey, what are you doing?”
He didn’t answer me.
Across the room, Grant was still smiling. He didn’t notice his son at all. He was leaning over to whisper something to his lawyer.
Nolan lifted the front of his shirt just a few inches. Enough to reach the inside of the fabric behind the moon. His fingers found the tiny secret pocket my mother had sewn.
He pulled something out.
Then he slid off his chair and stood up.
“Excuse me,” he said to the judge. His voice was small but clear. “Can I say something?”
