āWeāve decided to take Talia instead.ā
My mother said it before I had even gotten the trunk open. She said it the way people say the weather is turning, or that the store is out of milk. Like it was a small change of plans. Like it was nothing.
I was standing in my parentsā driveway at five-forty in the morning with my keys still in my hand. The sky over the rooftops was that thin gray color it gets before sunrise in late October. My breath was coming out in little white clouds. Three coffees sat in the cupholders of my car, one black for Dad, one with oat milk for Mom, one with two sugars for me.
āWhat do you mean, instead?ā I asked.
Dad came down the front steps with his rolling suitcase. Behind him, my sister Talia was dragging a second one, a bright red one I had never seen before. She was wearing sunglasses even though the sun wasnāt up.
āYour sister needs this more than you do, Nina,ā Dad said. āSheās been having a hard time.ā
āIāve been planning this for five months.ā
āAnd itās a beautiful plan,ā Mom said. She reached out and patted my arm. āYou did such a wonderful job. Taliaās going to love it.ā
I looked at Talia. She didnāt look at me. She was looking at her phone.
āDad, my name is on the reservation. I took the week off work. My suitcase is in the car.ā
āWe already took care of the ticket,ā Dad said. āTaliaās flying in your seat. Itās done.ā
āYou changed my ticket? Without asking me?ā
āYouād have made it into a whole thing,ā he said. āLike youāre doing right now.ā
I stood there. Nobody said anything for a few seconds. A neighborās dog started barking somewhere down the block.
Then Talia finally looked up. āCan we go? Weāre going to miss the flight.ā
That was the part I couldnāt get over later. Not the words. The fact that she wanted me to drive them. She wanted me to load her new red suitcase into my trunk and drive her to the airport so she could take my seat on the trip I had paid for.
āTake a cab,ā I said.
Momās face went tight. āNina, donāt be petty. Itās our fortieth anniversary.ā
āI know what it is, Mom. Iām the one who booked it.ā
Dad already had his phone out, calling a ride. He didnāt argue. He didnāt apologize. He just turned his back and stood at the end of the driveway, waiting.
I got back in my car. I didnāt drive away right away. I sat there and watched the three of them through the windshield. Talia was laughing at something on her phone. Mom was fixing the collar of the cream wool coat we had picked out together at Nordstrom three weeks earlier. Dad was checking his watch.
None of them looked back at me.
When the cab pulled up, they loaded their bags and climbed in, and it turned at the corner, and they were gone.
I sat in the driveway with three coffees going cold. Then I pulled up the hotel reservation on my phone.
My name was still on the hotel reservation.
I checked it twice, standing beside my car while the morning cold worked through my coat.
Three guests. Two rooms. Seven nights. A small, elegant hotel in the Saint-Germain neighborhood of Paris, two blocks from the river. Under special requests, I had written that my parents were celebrating their fortieth wedding anniversary and that my father preferred a quiet room away from the elevator.
I had spent longer choosing those rooms than my parents had spent deciding whether I should come.
The whole trip had cost me $14,860. I knew the number exactly because I had moved it out of my savings account in three transfers over the summer, and every time I did it, I told myself it was worth it. Mom had never been to Paris. Dad had talked about seeing the Normandy beaches since I was a little girl. Forty years of marriage. Forty years of them working, raising two daughters, paying off a house in Naperville. I wanted them to have one perfect week.
I had wanted to be there to see it.
My finger hovered over the cancellation button.
Then I called the hotel instead.
A woman named Camille answered in careful English. I explained that I was the lead guest on the reservation and that I would not be traveling. I asked what could still be canceled.
She didnāt ask why. She just pulled up the booking and read me the terms.
āThe first night is non-refundable, madame. Six hundred and twenty euros for both rooms. The remaining six nights can be released if you confirm before noon, Paris time.ā
It was already past noon in Paris. My heart sank.
āLet me check,ā she said. A pause. Keys clicking. āAh. You booked with the flexible rate. The deadline is end of day for the arrival date. You are still within the window.ā
āThen I confirm. Please cancel the remaining nights.ā
āOf course. You will receive the confirmation by email.ā
After that, I sat in my car and went down the list. The private airport transfer, already booked for that afternoon. Canceled. The full-day countryside excursion to Giverny and Normandy, with a private driver. Canceled, with a twenty percent fee. The river dinner cruise. The anniversary dinner at a restaurant where I had spent days emailing the chef to make sure Dadās low-sodium diet could be accommodated. Canceled, both of them.
Some money came back. Some didnāt. By the time I was done, I figured Iād lost a little over $2,300 in fees and non-refundable deposits. The rest, about $9,100, would go back on my credit card in five to ten business days.
I left the flights alone.
My parents had their passports. They had their bank cards. They had their return tickets home. They were adults with a paid-off house and two retirement accounts. They would not be stranded.
What they no longer had was a week of my work, dressed up as something they could hand to somebody else.
I sent one message to the family chat, where my parents and Talia would all see it.
Since I am no longer included, I have canceled the arrangements booked under my name. Your return flights remain unchanged. You will need to arrange your own accommodation and activities.
Their plane had already taken off. I watched the message sit there, delivered, unread.
For the next eight hours, nobody could tell me I was overreacting.
I drove home with three coffees cooling in the cupholders.
At my apartment, I carried my suitcase back up the stairs and set it by the door. I didnāt unpack it. I put the itinerary folder on the kitchen counter and sat down on a stool beside it.
I had made that folder by hand. Printed every confirmation, every map, every restaurant menu translated into English. Iād bought a nice leather cover from a stationery shop downtown. On the front, in gold lettering Iād paid an extra eleven dollars for, it said Our Week Away.
I turned it facedown.
I had taken seven days of vacation from work. Iām a compliance manager at a mid-sized financial services firm in the Loop. I spend my days reading other peopleās paperwork, finding the numbers that donāt match, asking the questions nobody wants to answer. Itās not glamorous. But Iām good at it. I hadnāt taken a full week off in almost three years.
For the first time in a long time, there was nothing on my calendar that somebody else needed from me.
I had no idea what to do with that.
I made a sandwich and didnāt eat it. I turned on the television and didnāt watch it. I sat on the couch and looked at the suitcase by the door.
My motherās first call came about an hour after their flight landed in Paris.
I watched her name light up on the screen. Mom, with a little heart emoji next to it that Talia had added years ago as a joke. I watched it ring until it stopped.
Then Dad called. Marek Volkov, the contact said. Iād never changed it to Dad.
Then Talia.
Then the messages started coming in bursts.
Where is the driver?
Answer your phone.
The hotel says thereās a problem with the booking.
NINA.
Then, finally, a photograph.
My parents standing next to their luggage under the brass ceiling lights of the hotel lobby. Talia in the front of the picture, one arm stretched out toward the reception desk like a game show host showing off a prize.
Under it, two words.
Fix this.
I looked at the picture for a long time.
My mother was wearing the cream coat. I remembered standing outside the fitting room while she turned in front of the mirror. She asked me if it looked elegant enough for Europe. She sounded nervous, like a girl going to her first dance.
āYou look beautiful, Mom,ā I told her.
She smiled at me in the mirror. It was the happiest Iād seen her look in a long time.
That memory hurt worse than anything Talia had typed.
I called Dad back.
He answered on the first ring.
āWhat have you done?ā
āI told you what I did. Itās in the message.ā
āThey donāt have rooms for us, Nina. They say the reservation was canceled.ā
āThe reservation was in my name. I canceled it.ā
āYour mother is exhausted. Weāve been traveling for eleven hours.ā
āSo am I, Dad.ā
āDonāt be like that.ā
Behind him, I heard Talia say something sharp in a voice I couldnāt make out.
Then there was a rustle, and my mother came on the line.
āHow could you humiliate us like this? In front of all these people?ā
